"It just felt like no-one would touch me with a barge-pole."
When you become disabled, it might sound dramatic, but you kind of go through a grieving process because you’ve lost the life you had and you need to figure out a new life. It got to a point where I didn’t even know what type of job I could do and that really knocked my confidence and knocked me down a bit. I felt lost.
I started applying for anything I saw where I thought “I could do that”. Didn’t matter what it was, what the pay was, I was just desperate to work. Not just because of the financial side but I’m one of those people who likes to be doing something.
It was probably the lowest point of my life. It really knocked my self-worth and my self-confidence. You start to feel like you’re not worthy of being employed despite having a great career history and I felt like all my qualifications had been for nothing.
You start to feel like you’re not worthy of being employed despite having a great career history...Simone
The only way I can describe looking for work if you’re disabled is like being in a giant bowl and every time you get near the top, you slip back down or you’re pushed back down. It’s a dreadful experience.
I wanted to work. I didn’t want to claim benefits. I want my kids to follow my lead and when I wasn’t working I felt like I wasn’t showing them the right way. I felt a bit useless to be honest.